Journal of Stuff

I IS ARE WINNAR

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 15:48:29 GMT

FUCK YEAH!
That's about all I can say really.
I finished with 20minutes to spare.
I FINISHED SOMETHING

I'd like the thank the academy....

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 08:22:51 GMT

A job! I has it! =D

My life is a cliche

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 06:22:45 GMT

My friend gets married in a year, I get to be a bridesmaid.
Typically the Maid of Honour has lots of money and a good job.

.....Two things I don't.

Even though we have on year to go, the demmands for money have begun. $60 from everyone to buy the bride a pair of shoes.

I love my friend dearly but I am in serious financial trouble. Right now I can't afford to buy myself something for dinner, let alone waste money on something that won't even belong to me and that my friend will wear for a grand total of ONE day.

I know my friend will understand this.....I don't think the Maid of Honour will....I am prepared for the worst...

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 09:51:33 GMT

After suffering a bout of gastro, and now sitting here alone in my house, surrounded by my debts. I can't help but wonder what did I do wrong to the universe. Sure I fuck up here and there, but this much? Really?

I just want things to be simple. I want to have a job that doesn't humiliate me or abuse me, I want to pay of my debts and I just want enjoy the fact that I'm alive....But I can't, for some fucking reason it can't be that simple.

My usual annoyance with the world is just made worse by being sick =/

Adios Amigo

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 00:07:11 GMT

SR is leaving today D=

After a year she’s heading back home to the Netherlands. I’m being all sad and emo about it because despite the fact that my life has literally fallen down around me, I’ve had a fantastic time.

I’ve had a partner in crime to go on adventures with, what more can a girl want.

Also recently, I moved house: P and two weeks ago we went to Alice Springs for a week and saw Uluru. It was looovely and has just thrown fuel upon my desire to travel once more. If it was not for the fact that I owe lots of money to various places and people, I would be gone in a heart beat. So sadly I must wait a year or two =/

But alas, I’m sad because I really enjoyed having a housemate and not having to spend all my time with my family. I love them, but it’s difficult. With friends it’s different.

I’m going to miss randomly going to McDonalds in the middle of the night. I’m going to miss going to ride horses all the time, to the point I get sick of driving, but I still go anyway. I’m going to miss the random flailing about the house in the morning as SR waits at the door giving me that ‘look’. And who is going to help me find stuff when I loose it?

SR you’re the awesome, and I’m gunna miss you. But we’ll catch up soon!

Another day goes by....

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 02:07:57 GMT

So the horses have all gone. I'm studying horses at tafe, which has been a whole lot of fun for the most part. Even better because our twelve month course has been compressed in to six months due to lack of numbers.

I have a job, even if I don't actually get any hours that are worth mentioning. So I'm still technically going bankrupt if it weren't for mum giving me money to survive.

Should be moving house soon, to other one my mum owns so that she doesn't have to give me money to pay rent. That should be late September, hopefully.

I’m getting incredibly annoyed by people ringing me during school hours, with a blank number and not leaving messages. Just leave a bloody message you bastards it’s not that hard to do!

Tired of having so little motivation, I don’t want to do anything but curl up in the corner and wail about how much I hate my life. I know it’s not going to get me anywhere so I troop on, but ugh.

I hope things improve soon, not sure how much longer I can handle this really, It’s really beginning to wear me down.

And off it goes...

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 02:50:35 GMT

So, SR is off in Melbourne. I'm back to the master of my bachelorett pad.

The orientation for my first day of studing horses is today....Whee!

Aloooone

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 17:16:24 GMT

I alone........:(

SR's in Melbourne now and the apartment seems very large.

Yay!

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 13:02:53 GMT

So SR and I went on a awesome road trip last week. From here to Busselton, to Pemberton and to Bunbury before going home. T’was lots of fun, we saw dolphins and waterfalls, while staying in a cabin that had a balcony open out onto a lake! But if I have to see another bloody tree I’m going to set fire to it >.>

Also…I GOT A JOB.

Yes…Me…I got a job…..

At a cinema, this is great since I’ve worked at one for about ten years or soooo not to strange I hope.

So yes… A JOB… I HAS IT

<.<….Can you tell I’m excited?

Last Friday I had a four hour induction course with them and tomorrow I start my first shift. I’m nervous as hell….Which is stupid because I doubt that anything they can throw at me on my first day is going to bother me….But still…Seven months unemployed has left me feeling very unconfident in my working ability.

*deeeeep breath* It will be fine….But, yay! Job!

Another random update

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 14:10:07 GMT

Since it’s been pointed out that I’ve not made an entry for a while ( Hi Ernie! =D ) I though I shall make a quick update!

So! Where shall I start……

1. I got into uni to study a BA in Psychology and one in Human Resources. Turns out I suck. Dropped out of the Psych stuff because I’m not as clever as I seemed to think I was but pushed through on the Human Resources stuff. Exam results come in tomorrow, but I think I might have passed…>.> Maybe…

2. The old horse I had got taken away by its owner and there was nothing we could do. About six weeks later we found another, his name is Tycoon. Sadly he’s going to go home too as he’s too much horse for me to handle at this stage and SR is going to Melbourne in three weeks time. Not sure how I’m going to keep riding, but I will persevere.

3. Still nothing on the job front other than huge amounts of epic fail. After the drive through coffee shop fiasco I got an interview at the Merchant Tea House. Normally I wouldn’t name the company here, but I feel the need to name and shame them because of their behaviour. I had an interview that went very well with them. The interviewer told me to apply for a casual management position rather than a normal staff position because of my previous experience. I honestly didn’t care which I got, although obviously I was attracted to the management position.

I got given a one day work trial at their Rockingham store. On this day I worked my little heart out, I really did. I thought I had it in the bag. After all I do have a fair bit of café and restaurant experience, the staff liked me and at the end of the shift the store manager gave me a glowing report on my hard work and initiative. The part that pissed me off was when they criticized my coffee making skills. This is not because I think my coffees are awesome, but because I clearly told them many times that I had not made a coffee for over six months. They gave me one chance at using their completely strange machine and declared my coffees would need a lot of work. Of course they fucking would! I told you this you idiots.

So considering this, I worked eight hours as hard as I could. I went home and waited. I continued to wait…And wait. Till I decided, “Fuck this, I’m going to hunt them down instead.” So I rang the manager, I rang the interviewer. I left multiple messages and I never got a phone call back. So a big fuck you to Merchant Tea House, and you owe me about $130 in coffee you bastards.

After the whole Merchant Tea House thing I was very disheartened so I didn’t do much for a few weeks. As some point I stopped feeling sorry for myself and began applying to everything. I have been denied by every major shopping chain in the state, including Bunning’s, Woolworths, Coles Myer and also a bunch of fast food stores, eg McDonalds, Red Rooster and Chicken Treat. Yes, even McDonalds didn’t want me. It’s a wonderful thing for your self confidence to deal with, let me tell you that.

I worked a long weekend at the Arts Centre which was nice and finally got an interview with McDonalds. To which I went and the interviewer wasn’t even there, I got interviewed by some kid manager and I’ve heard nothing else from them.

Then most recently I had an interview with a clothing store. A group interview which also happened to be the one of the more humiliating experiences of my life and if I didn’t desperately need a job, I would have walked out. But alas I was forced to draw, act and dance (I’m not kidding) to prove that I was a vibrant and interesting person. Unsurprisingly I didn’t get the job.

On Friday I had a job interview with a cinema, no reply yet but it is sort of promising. Although I doubt they will employ me due to this simple trend that I have noticed. No one cares about experience, never mind I have managed two cafes and a theatre. I am twenty-two; I get paid $19 an hour. They are eighteen and they get paid $13…We both can serve alcohol…..Cheap is good apparently.

4. Due to my university failure I’m only doing half the amount I did in first semester, but just for the fun of it I’m going to do a short course on horses. Random, but it should be fun and who knows I might learn something.

5. Tomorrow SR and I are going on a road trip!! We’re heading out early down to Busselton, then on Tuesday and Wednesday we’re in Pemberton and then on Thursday we’re in Bunbury and back home on Friday. I thought it was about time we actually did something touristy since SR’ll be heading to Melbourne in about three weeks until September.

Wow I honestly didn’t think I was going to write so much >.>

So, in conclusion. People still suck. If you are going to interview people, don’t be an asshat. I vow that the next company that fucks me around is going to get nasty letters, ( oooh scary -__-) I am sick to death of it!

Anyway, no more bad thoughts. I’m going to have a good weekend of sight seeing….Just hope it doesn’t rain too much :D

Fuck the world & why it all sucks.

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 05:30:09 GMT

Fuck the world & why it all sucks.

1. I got a job at a little drive through coffee shop after six weeks of job hunting. It was all very slow to start off, but then I had a training day! Then they warned me the new store I would be working at wouldn’t open till the middle of March.

Then there was silence. Then I was told that the store won’t be opening till the middle of April, minimum. I am without a job again.

There are even less jobs advertised and none of them are suitable for students.

Bills are getting bigger, money is non existent

I have a horse on lease; now the owner wants to dishonour the contract.

We paid $200-$300 getting the horse ready to be worked in a month

She probably did it to get that stuff for free.

I can’t afford legal help and the free services takes months

I’m loosing my pony one of the few things that’s kept me going

People wonder why I have no faith in humanity. It’s because everyone is only looking out for themselves,(Alex,2009) give them a chance they’ll steal from your rotting corpse. Fuck you all.

Job Fail

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 03:48:07 GMT

I have a applied for near on fourty jobs. From all these applications I have recieved about three replies. The rest haven't even bothered to ring or email back saying they recieved my resume, which is amazingly rude no matter which way you look at it.

After all this I have finally crushed my ego enough to apply for a position at McDonalds.

But guess what.....Even McDonalds doesn't want me. At least they emailed me back I supose but still, the point remains. Not even the 'equal opertunity work place of teenagers" will take me! I'm officialy doomed it seems.

It's February

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 18:08:04 GMT

So an update of my life.

Still not job as of yet, although I have applied for over forty jobs I have received only three replies. From those three replies I had either no more contact or an interview followed by no contact. It drives me nuts. How bloody hard is it to let someone know you received their letter/phone call/email, even if it’s to tell them you’re not interested?

Yupp, so no job, but Centrelink has finally given in and decided that I deserve student monies. Yay!

I start university again on Tuesday! I have books, pens, paper and files, all organised!! I know shocking. This time I have vowed to every single person I’ve spoken to that I will be doing it properly. This time I am going to complete my degree, no ifs or buts.

So I’m studying a Bachelor of Psychology and Bachelor of Commerce: Human Resources.

The plan is that I –need- to get an average of 70% in all my psychology units. If I do this for my first year I get into the Psychology Honours program, which means when I graduate I am able to come back at a later date to do my masters and phd without a single hassle. Although at this stage I don’t plan to become a proper psychologist in the future I may change my mind, so I think it’s a good idea to keep my options open. Also saying I graduated with honours sounds a lot fancier than the normal. Also honours students get a lot more scholarships and nice things. I have no idea how realistic this goal is, but I figure it’s worth trying.

See how I go. Tuesday, first class. Let’s see if I run away screaming :P

The Birthday

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 09:10:53 GMT

So it came to be that after all my complaining and worries that getting old must mean I’m a failure it came about that I had a very good birthday after all. (Thanks to the points made by my friends of course).

Although my birthday activities were spread over a week long period, and did happen to include putting my back out, it has been a great week.

The weekend before my birthday I went out to dinner with Jen and Lindi at the Gate. We had a fancy three course meal and then drinks afterwards which was just perfect. You can’t ask for much better than having a great night out with your friends. Except maybe an awesome teapot and set, which I just happened to get from Jen XD.

On my actual birthday the family ( read Mum, brother and now Lindi, my adopted sister) I managed to get the brother and mother to agree to go to a real restaurant. Well sort of, but it was fancy and I enjoyed it greatly.

Most importantly my mother got me the greatest gift EVER Tapis Rouge Tickets for Cirque De Sole Dralion, which for those who don’t know are the ultimate VIP tickets and the best seats available. I think I squeeeed for about a minute straight. XD Today we headed off to see the show and all I can say is…Wow….Seriously wow. There is no way I can really put the feeling I come away with from a show like that into words. It just doesn’t work. The show itself is amazing, the production values flawless, the lighting design amazing and of course most importantly the acts are awe inspiring and often amusing. I think I said this when I was the last Cirque show, but honestly Dirque De Sole is possibly the greatest thing on earth, winning over chocolate by just a few points.

Also because mother dearest and I were in the VIP section we got unlimited wine, beer and soft drink, special parking, free program and sound track as well as a delicious selection of food before and during the show. It was the perfect addition to a great show.

I feel so cheerful right now =D
So, in the end…Good birthday is good. You’ve just got to see what you’ve done, rather than what you haven’t.

Birthdays

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 20:03:25 GMT

Once again I have come to the conclusion that Birthdays are bad.

On Tuesday the 3rd I turn 22.

That's 22 years of life where I've done completely nothing of significance. 22 years in which I have completed a large amount of nothing.
There are so many things that I thought I would have done by now, hundreds of things I had hoped to achieve but some how never got around to. I wouldn't call myself a faliure, but I'm damn close to it. I'm an unemployed, unskilled young woman who has great dreams she'll never live up to and getting older reminds me of how much time I'm wasting...

I have two friends. No social life. I want to go out clubbing and pubbing like the good old days, but haven’t been able to do so for the past two years because I have no desire to go on my own. I feel like I’m missing a part of my life and it’s not just the clubbing, it’s the whole social aspect, going out and pretending that this isn’t my life.

I just hate Birthdays, they don’t make me feel lucky for everything I have, they make me depressed because they remind me of how much time is passing and how much I’ve not done.

I’m sitting here trying to think of something I’d like to do on my Birthday…..But I can’t think of a single thing. Not one thing apart from sleeping…..And that’s what upsets me…..

And so the year goes by.

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 13:57:47 GMT

Despite everything the year started off fairly alright.

Considering I am unemployed, running out of money, without a horse despite many plans, lost confidence in myself due to aforementioned unemployment and without any direction in my life at all. I have just been cruising along enjoying the time off and pretending that nothing else matters.

Last week I finally got my act together and I have decided that I am back off to university, with any luck this will be the last time. Unfortunatelyfinding jobs at the moment is not an easy task. Unless you're a middle age woman with reception experience then there's little out there.

Today stuff happened:

Got invited for an interview with a job that may be rather suitable to my needs - GOOD!!
Found the perfect place to agist potential horses for a nice cheap amount - GOOD!!
Created wanted adverts for suitable and cheap horses, and got responses - GOOD!!
Found out the other house my mum owns ~~caught on fire~~ smouldered a bit- Er what??......

So I guess.... 3 out 4 were good things?.....

Happy New Year

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:02:34 GMT

Sooooo....Another year, this one ending in 9....Nice....

I saw this, it amused me.

Last thing you did in 2008: Battled the door of my computer to stay shut then stood near the radio to work as antenna.

First thing you did in 2009: Curse the radio station for not playing the new years count down but instead playing a song by Pink

Happy New Year everyone!
May this one be better than the last few.

Double Tagged!

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 10:40:06 GMT

Two Meme's to conqure today....

First one, tagged by llwheeler

Rules: for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day. Tag 8 people to do the same.

Eight people I choose: I can't tag anyone :(

Today I'm happy because... I've done nothing all day and now have fresh bread rolls for dinner.....

The second on tagged by llwheeler and srness

A. People who have been tagged must, if they choose to participate, write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. Please italicize the new question if you do that.

B. Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

01. What are your nicknames?
Bexx, Bec, Oi you.

02. How do you style your hair?
How ever it likes, usually in a pony tail

03. What's new in your life right now?
Unemployment......Sorta....

04. How many colours are you wearing now?
Various greys and blues

05. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
I am smack in the middle, depends on who I'm with and my mood.

06. What was the last book you read?
No idea, haven't had time to re

07. Do you nap a lot?
Sometimes I don't but lately I've been napping twice a day at least >.>

08. If you had to have a one night stand with someone famous, who would you like it to be?
Hmm hard one....I'd prefer to have a date with someone than a one night stand. I dunno David Tennant because he amused me?

09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
A fair few things. Ya know...Life...

10. What's your current obsession?
Sleeping, seriously

11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Depends...I can be ready in five mins if I need to, but sometimes i take forever. So between 5 - 90mins..=P

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Facebook, Livejournal, iinet, various web comics I can't be bothered listing, and RTN (http://z13.invisionfree.com/rememberthename/index.php?act=idx)

13. Do you write fic? What was the last fic you wrote?
Don't write fan fic, but I rp

14. What's the last thing you laughed about?
hmmm some child in egypt being beaten to death becuase he didn't do his homework, school serious businesss o.O

15. What's the last song that got stuck in your head?
A cover version of Milkshake, by Richard Cheese.

16. What's the last movie you saw?
Cloverfeild

17. Would you enter a relationship with your ideal partner, even if you knew he/she was seriously involved with/married to someone else and would never leave them?
Nope, I don't like other people touchin my things

18. What is your least favourite thing to do that you have to do every day?
Get up. Waking up is fine. It's the actual getting up part I don't so much care for...

I'm breaking the rules of the meme too since I've no one to tag XD Go Me!

Freedom

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 09:42:50 GMT

So as per my last entry. Company A today demanded I leave to right away.

Freedom....Holidays to either the 15th of Jan or until I find a different job..Hurrah!

Life is suck

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 02:22:11 GMT

The last weeks have been so full of suck.

Firstly there’s been problems at work, and without revealing everything about it basically it’s like this. Company A owns the place I run. Company B has a contract to run the place and I work for Company B. Company A are just arseholes, nothing more to be said. Company A’s representative who we shall call Asshat has had it in for me and my boss, who we shall call Bossman, from the very beginning.

So between having no idea what I’m doing and not being told that I had to do something until it was two months late by Bossman, and being constantly hounded by Asshat, as well as various mini asshats known us customers, I was at breaking point.

Amusingly enough before I could snap, Company A demanded to Bossman that I resign due to my obvious incompetence. Now I’ll admit, things haven’t been as good as they should have been, but I’ve been no where incompetent. Also in my defence if Bossman had actually shown me what the fuck I was supposed to be doing in the first place, then things may have been different. But I digress…..So I have until the first week of January to be out.

I’ve been upset about this, but the more I think about it the more I realise it’s probably for the best. All people do here is complain and nothing…I really mean nothing, you do makes them happy. I have been trying not to think about it to much, it’s a horrible blow to my ego, being told your hopeless and incompetent. To make it worse I can’t even defend myself.

So yeah fuck you company A.

Secondly I was buying a horse. I found him, turning down one other nice horse in order to get him. A delivery date and everything was set. The a whole fucking week later, the owners ring me and let me know that they’re no longer selling the animal. This pisses me off for so many reasons, not to mention that because of the whole life sucking thing, I had been concentrating on getting a horse as a way to forget about everything else. It was the thing I was really looking forward too. So buh….Arseholes, if you promise to sell something then sell it, don’t let people get their hopes up, it’s plain rude.

So yeah fuck you horse sellers.

The house is a mess and I have an inspection tomorrow but I’m just so unmotivated the world just sucks and it seems that no matter what I do, everything always goes wrong.

To make it worse I’m working at my workplace still. Still being abused and complained at, but this time with no purpose because I’m not working toward anything. It’s taking a great deal of my self control to tell these wankers to fuck off.
I think today when Bossman comes back from the meeting, if he complains about anything I’ll just leave. I have four weeks holiday pay, and I know I could use it.

thursday night of win

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 14:27:52 GMT

Went riding today. It was all sorts of awesome because we went into the big paddock. I trotted for a while and even went so far as to canter for a bit as well. Apparently I'm looking all sorts of awesome for a beginner while I trot, though I imagine I look the fool when cantering since I just can't stop laughing for some reason XD

Saw 'Australia' the movie yesterday and as such when SR and I were riding in a large paddock with a cow, we decided to be drovers and attempt to herd the cow around. I think the cow is smarter than us though, but it was still great fun.

Whee

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 13:10:15 GMT

I mounted William first try today 8D SR even said it looked semi graceful....

Even though I somehow managed to smack my face on it....>.>

So wheeee, anyway XD

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 11:05:04 GMT

Dinner...I cooked it and it was good.

It's been a long time since I've cooked an actual meal but since I have a house guest it makes cooking worth while.

So SR's been here for over a week now....Aaaaand we've done nothing...Well we went to Perth the other day, looked at black swans and had McDonalds in the city since we couldn't find anything else around there!

Maybe this weekend once my pay comes in we can do something...Like see kangaroos..Preferably ones that aren't dead on the side of the road. >.>

In other horse news, SR's been attempting to teach me to ride. Was bareback on Trevor attempting to touch my toes without falling off, not an easy task by any means *_* All in all not sure how the learning of riding went, but I had fun :3

The Weather

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 13:20:19 GMT

The weather is making a liar of me. So SR is finally here in Australia and all it does it rain, typical. We went riding today though then the rain came and wouldn’t go away, I’m sure it felt rather homely for SR =P Got soaked through, had a cup of tea and some chocolates, t’was a fun evening, something different.

Ugh, need to start nano...Already three days behind.

Ugh….back to work tomorrow….

Trevor, William, Emma, Bee and Prince.

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 12:55:52 GMT

Almost sounds like I have friends, but sadly not. It's just my new obsession, horse riding!
So, the last few weeks I've been riding a lovely bay, standard bred, gelding called William. He's around five years old apparently and is generally fairly bombproof unless faced with scary things like fluro green t-shirts. In fact he's so bombproof, that he doesn't even like to move that much and would much rather slowly dawdled around than actually move with any purpose.

Then we have Trevor, who doesn't belong to the property owner, Michelle or myself, but we are leasing him. He's a twelve year old gelding, grey with brown dapples who apparently is supposed to be a pure bred Egyptian Arab (we highly doubt this) and is close to being morbidly obese. He's rather settled, nothing seems to bother him much but he is very forward moving and even when being lead he keeps up with a steady pace, unlike William who just can't be bothered.

There's also BeeBee, a little and typical Shetland pony who has started to love me I think, since he's suddenly decided that he'll listen to me some of the time, rather than just ignoring me.

Today when I went riding, I expected see only those three animals about but nope. Michelle was kind enough to allow these two horses to stay at her place for a week, until their owner finds agistment for them. Though to me it sounds more like she's dumped them.

So in addition to the boys we have a darling chestnut mare called Minnie Moo ( a name which Michelle and I hate) now renamed Emma (just to match the boys). She's been neglected, her ribs are showing and her feet look horrible (noticeable to even a person like me who has no idea about horses hooves!)But she has the sweetest face and even though she had never met me before came straight up to me and then followed me around. Did I mention she's the beautiful bright chestnut, so pretty!

Unfortunately she came with the little monster. Prince is about 12hh I think, he's a gelding and I don't know enough about horses to even begin to say what colour he is. Either way, he's a little bastard. Kicks, bites and I think he did a little bit of bucking today as well. The most annoying this is that Emma and Prince love one another. Take them out of eyesight and they both freak out. Once we put Emma in with William (who loved her straight away) she seemed to calm down, but Prince kept being crazy.

Sadly I don’t know what’s going to happen to those two, since the owner of the property from whom Michelle rents doesn’t want her to own more than two horses. Also their real owner may return to collect them. If not I think it was general agreement to get rid of Prince, he’s too dangerous for a beginner and a novice to control especially with small kids around. Though I’d like to keep Emma, but I’ll have to get some advice on her feet just incase she’s buggered up for life. She’s only just 15hh now I think, but apparently horses keep growing till their 7?….

Anyway enough about horses, I just felt like talking about them and SR wasn't online

Speaking of SR.Six sleeps till she's here =D I should really move that fridge out of the spare room!