[16 Nov 2009|04:22pm] [ mood | chipper ] A job! I has it! =D 1 comment|post comment

My life is a cliche [12 Nov 2009|02:18pm] [ mood | frustrated ] My friend gets married in a year, I get to be a bridesmaid. Typically the Maid of Honour has lots of money and a good job. .....Two things I don't. Even though we have on year to go, the demmands for money have begun. $60 from everyone to buy the bride a pair of shoes. I love my friend dearly but I am in serious financial trouble. Right now I can't afford to buy myself something for dinner, let alone waste money on something that won't even belong to me and that my friend will wear for a grand total of ONE day. I know my friend will understand this.....I don't think the Maid of Honour will....I am prepared for the worst... post comment

[10 Nov 2009|05:47pm] [ mood | stressed ] After suffering a bout of gastro, and now sitting here alone in my house, surrounded by my debts. I can't help but wonder what did I do wrong to the universe. Sure I fuck up here and there, but this much? Really? I just want things to be simple. I want to have a job that doesn't humiliate me or abuse me, I want to pay of my debts and I just want enjoy the fact that I'm alive....But I can't, for some fucking reason it can't be that simple. My usual annoyance with the world is just made worse by being sick =/ post comment

Adios Amigo [01 Nov 2009|07:58am] [ mood | sad ] SR is leaving today D= After a year she’s heading back home to the Netherlands. I’m being all sad and emo about it because despite the fact that my life has literally fallen down around me, I’ve had a fantastic time. I’ve had a partner in crime to go on adventures with, what more can a girl want. Also recently, I moved house: P and two weeks ago we went to Alice Springs for a week and saw Uluru. It was looovely and has just thrown fuel upon my desire to travel once more. If it was not for the fact that I owe lots of money to various places and people, I would be gone in a heart beat. So sadly I must wait a year or two =/ But alas, I’m sad because I really enjoyed having a housemate and not having to spend all my time with my family. I love them, but it’s difficult. With friends it’s different. I’m going to miss randomly going to McDonalds in the middle of the night. I’m going to miss going to ride horses all the time, to the point I get sick of driving, but I still go anyway. I’m going to miss the random flailing about the house in the morning as SR waits at the door giving me that ‘look’. And who is going to help me find stuff when I loose it? SR you’re the awesome, and I’m gunna miss you. But we’ll catch up soon! post comment

Another day goes by.... [19 Aug 2009|10:02am] [ mood | tired ] So the horses have all gone. I'm studying horses at tafe, which has been a whole lot of fun for the most part. Even better because our twelve month course has been compressed in to six months due to lack of numbers. I have a job, even if I don't actually get any hours that are worth mentioning. So I'm still technically going bankrupt if it weren't for mum giving me money to survive. Should be moving house soon, to other one my mum owns so that she doesn't have to give me money to pay rent. That should be late September, hopefully. I’m getting incredibly annoyed by people ringing me during school hours, with a blank number and not leaving messages. Just leave a bloody message you bastards it’s not that hard to do!   Tired of having so little motivation, I don’t want to do anything but curl up in the corner and wail about how much I hate my life. I know it’s not going to get me anywhere so I troop on, but ugh.   I hope things improve soon, not sure how much longer I can handle this really, It’s really beginning to wear me down. post comment

And off it goes... [20 Jul 2009|10:48am] [ mood | nervous ] So, SR is off in Melbourne. I'm back to the master of my bachelorett pad. The orientation for my first day of studing horses is today....Whee! post comment

Aloooone [19 Jul 2009|01:14am] I alone........:( SR's in Melbourne now and the apartment seems very large. post comment

Yay! [09 Jul 2009|08:55pm] [ mood | nervous ] So SR and I went on a awesome road trip last week. From here to Busselton, to Pemberton and to Bunbury before going home. T’was lots of fun, we saw dolphins and waterfalls, while staying in a cabin that had a balcony open out onto a lake! But if I have to see another bloody tree I’m going to set fire to it >.>   Also…I GOT A JOB.   Yes…Me…I got a job…..   At a cinema, this is great since I’ve worked at one for about ten years or soooo not to strange I hope.   So yes… A JOB… I HAS IT   <.<….Can you tell I’m excited?   Last Friday I had a four hour induction course with them and tomorrow I start my first shift. I’m nervous as hell….Which is stupid because I doubt that anything they can throw at me on my first day is going to bother me….But still…Seven months unemployed has left me feeling very unconfident in my working ability.   *deeeeep breath*  It will be fine….But, yay! Job!           1 comment|post comment

Another random update [28 Jun 2009|10:07pm] [ mood | blah ] Since it’s been pointed out that I’ve not made an entry for a while ( Hi Ernie! =D ) I though I shall make a quick update! So! Where shall I start…… ( ..Click here to read the rest...It's long >.> ) So, in conclusion. People still suck. If you are going to interview people, don’t be an asshat. I vow that the next company that fucks me around is going to get nasty letters, ( oooh scary -__-)  I am sick to death of it!   Anyway, no more bad thoughts. I’m going to have a good weekend of sight seeing….Just hope it doesn’t rain too much :D 1 comment|post comment

Fuck the world & why it all sucks. [18 Mar 2009|02:18pm] [ mood | pissed off ] Fuck the world & why it all sucks.   1. I got a job at a little drive through coffee shop after six weeks of job hunting. It was all very slow to start off, but then I had a training day! Then they warned me the new store I would be working at wouldn’t open till the middle of March.   Then there was silence. Then I was told that the store won’t be opening till the middle of April, minimum. I am without a job again.   There are even less jobs advertised and none of them are suitable for students.   Bills are getting bigger, money is non existent   I have a horse on lease; now the owner wants to dishonour the contract.   We paid $200-$300 getting the horse ready to be worked in a month   She probably did it to get that stuff for free.   I can’t afford legal help and the free services takes months   I’m loosing my pony one of the few things that’s kept me going    People wonder why I have no faith in humanity. It’s because everyone is only looking out for themselves,(Alex,2009) give them a chance they’ll steal from your rotting corpse. Fuck you all. post comment

Job Fail [20 Feb 2009|12:42pm] [ mood | bitchy ] I have a applied for near on fourty jobs. From all these applications I have recieved about three replies. The rest haven't even bothered to ring or email back saying they recieved my resume, which is amazingly rude no matter which way you look at it. After all this I have finally crushed my ego enough to apply for a position at McDonalds. But guess what.....Even McDonalds doesn't want me. At least they emailed me back I supose but still, the point remains. Not even the 'equal opertunity work place of teenagers" will take me! I'm officialy doomed it seems. post comment

It's February [15 Feb 2009|02:56am] [ mood | bouncy ]  So an update of my life.  Still not job as of yet, although I have applied for over forty jobs I have received only three replies. From those three replies I had either no more contact or an interview followed by no contact. It drives me nuts. How bloody hard is it to let someone know you received their letter/phone call/email, even if it’s to tell them you’re not interested?  Yupp, so no job, but Centrelink has finally given in and decided that I deserve student monies. Yay!  I start university again on Tuesday! I have books, pens, paper and files, all organised!! I know shocking. This time I have vowed to every single person I’ve spoken to that I will be doing it properly. This time I am going to complete my degree, no ifs or buts. So I’m studying a Bachelor of Psychology and Bachelor of Commerce: Human Resources.    The plan is that I –need- to get an average of 70% in all my psychology units. If I do this for my first year I get into the Psychology Honours program, which means when I graduate I am able to come back at a later date to do my masters and phd without a single hassle. Although at this stage I don’t plan to become a proper psychologist in the future I may change my mind, so I think it’s a good idea to keep my options open. Also saying I graduated with honours sounds a lot fancier than the normal. Also honours students get a lot more scholarships and nice things. I have no idea how realistic this goal is, but I figure it’s worth trying.  See how I go. Tuesday, first class. Let’s see if I run away screaming :P   post comment

The Birthday [08 Feb 2009|06:09pm] [ mood | cheerful ]  So it came to be that after all my complaining and worries that getting old must mean I’m a failure it came about that I had a very good birthday after all. (Thanks to the points made by my friends of course).  Although my birthday activities were spread over a week long period, and did happen to include putting my back out, it has been a great week.  The weekend before my birthday I went out to dinner with Jen and Lindi at the Gate. We had a fancy three course meal and then drinks afterwards which was just perfect. You can’t ask for much better than having a great night out with your friends. Except maybe an awesome teapot and set, which I just happened to get from Jen XD.  On my actual birthday the family ( read Mum, brother and now Lindi, my adopted sister) I managed to get the brother and mother to agree to go to a real restaurant. Well sort of, but it was fancy and I enjoyed it greatly.  Most importantly my mother got me the greatest gift EVER Tapis Rouge Tickets for Cirque De Sole Dralion, which for those who don’t know are the ultimate VIP tickets and the best seats available. I think I squeeeed for about a minute straight. XD Today we headed off to see the show and all I can say is…Wow….Seriously wow. There is no way I can really put the feeling I come away with from a show like that into words. It just doesn’t work. The show itself is amazing, the production values flawless, the lighting design amazing and of course most importantly the acts are awe inspiring and often amusing. I think I said this when I was the last Cirque show, but honestly Dirque De Sole is possibly the greatest thing on earth, winning over chocolate by just a few points. Also because mother dearest and I were in the VIP section we got unlimited wine, beer and soft drink, special parking, free program and sound track as well as a delicious selection of food before and during the show. It was the perfect addition to a great show.  I feel so cheerful right now =D So, in the end…Good birthday is good. You’ve just got to see what you’ve done, rather than what you haven’t.     post comment

Birthdays [30 Jan 2009|04:50am] [ mood | sad ] Once again I have come to the conclusion that Birthdays are bad. On Tuesday the 3rd I turn 22. That's 22 years of life where I've done completely nothing of significance. 22 years in which I have completed a large amount of nothing. There are so many things that I thought I would have done by now, hundreds of things I had hoped to achieve but some how never got around to. I wouldn't call myself a faliure, but I'm damn close to it. I'm an unemployed, unskilled young woman who has great dreams she'll never live up to and getting older reminds me of how much time I'm wasting... I have two friends. No social life. I want to go out clubbing and pubbing like the good old days, but haven’t been able to do so for the past two years because I have no desire to go on my own. I feel like I’m missing a part of my life and it’s not just the clubbing, it’s the whole social aspect, going out and pretending that this isn’t my life.    I just hate Birthdays, they don’t make me feel lucky for everything I have, they make me depressed because they remind me of how much time is passing and how much I’ve not done.   I’m sitting here trying to think of something I’d like to do on my Birthday…..But I can’t think of a single thing. Not one thing apart from sleeping…..And that’s what upsets me….. 1 comment|post comment

And so the year goes by. [20 Jan 2009|10:49pm] [ mood | accomplished ] Despite everything the year started off fairly alright. Considering I am unemployed, running out of money, without a horse despite many plans, lost confidence in myself due to aforementioned unemployment and without any direction in my life at all. I have just been cruising along enjoying the time off and pretending that nothing else matters. Last week I finally got my act together and I have decided that I am back off to university, with any luck this will be the last time. Unfortunatelyfinding jobs at the moment is not an easy task. Unless you're a middle age woman with reception experience then there's little out there. Today stuff happened: Got invited for an interview with a job that may be rather suitable to my needs - GOOD!! Found the perfect place to agist potential horses for a nice cheap amount - GOOD!! Created wanted adverts for suitable and cheap horses, and got responses - GOOD!! Found out the other house my mum owns caught on fire smouldered a bit- Er what??...... So I guess.... 3 out 4 were good things?..... post comment

Happy New Year [01 Jan 2009|03:00am] [ mood | amused ] Sooooo....Another year, this one ending in 9....Nice.... I saw this, it amused me. Last thing you did in 2008: Battled the door of my computer to stay shut then stood near the radio to work as antenna. First thing you did in 2009: Curse the radio station for not playing the new years count down but instead playing a song by Pink Happy New Year everyone! May this one be better than the last few. post comment

Double Tagged! [21 Dec 2008|07:25pm] Two Meme's to conqure today.... First one, tagged by llwheeler  Rules: for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day. Tag 8 people to do the same. Eight people I choose: I can't tag anyone :( Today I'm happy because... I've done nothing all day and now have fresh bread rolls for dinner..... The second on tagged by llwheeler  and srness  A. People who have been tagged must, if they choose to participate, write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. Please italicize the new question if you do that. B. Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you. ( Questions! ) I'm breaking the rules of the meme too since I've no one to tag XD Go Me! post comment

Freedom [17 Dec 2008|06:40pm] [ mood | blank ] So as per my last entry. Company A today demanded I leave to right away. Freedom....Holidays to either the 15th of Jan or until I find a different job..Hurrah! post comment

Life is suck [17 Dec 2008|11:02am] [ mood | melancholy ] The last weeks have been so full of suck. Firstly there’s been problems at work, and without revealing everything about it basically it’s like this. Company A owns the place I run. Company B has a contract to run the place and I work for Company B. Company A are just arseholes, nothing more to be said. Company A’s representative who we shall call Asshat has had it in for me and my boss, who we shall call Bossman, from the very beginning. So between having no idea what I’m doing and not being told that I had to do something until it was two months late by Bossman, and being constantly hounded by Asshat, as well as various mini asshats known us customers, I was at breaking point. Amusingly enough before I could snap, Company A demanded to Bossman that I resign due to my obvious incompetence. Now I’ll admit, things haven’t been as good as they should have been, but I’ve been no where incompetent. Also in my defence if Bossman had actually shown me what the fuck I was supposed to be doing in the first place, then things may have been different. But I digress…..So I have until the first week of January to be out. I’ve been upset about this, but the more I think about it the more I realise it’s probably for the best. All people do here is complain and nothing…I really mean nothing, you do makes them happy. I have been trying not to think about it to much, it’s a horrible blow to my ego, being told your hopeless and incompetent. To make it worse I can’t even defend myself. So yeah fuck you company A. Secondly I was buying a horse. I found him, turning down one other nice horse in order to get him. A delivery date and everything was set. The a whole fucking week later, the owners ring me and let me know that they’re no longer selling the animal. This pisses me off for so many reasons, not to mention that because of the whole life sucking thing, I had been concentrating on getting a horse as a way to forget about everything else. It was the thing I was really looking forward too. So buh….Arseholes, if you promise to sell something then sell it, don’t let people get their hopes up, it’s plain rude. So yeah fuck you horse sellers. The house is a mess and I have an inspection tomorrow but I’m just so unmotivated the world just sucks and it seems that no matter what I do, everything always goes wrong. To make it worse I’m working at my workplace still. Still being abused and complained at, but this time with no purpose because I’m not working toward anything. It’s taking a great deal of my self control to tell these wankers to fuck off. I think today when Bossman comes back from the meeting, if he complains about anything I’ll just leave. I have four weeks holiday pay, and I know I could use it. 1 comment|post comment

thursday night of win [27 Nov 2008|11:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Went riding today. It was all sorts of awesome because we went into the big paddock. I trotted for a while and even went so far as to canter for a bit as well. Apparently I'm looking all sorts of awesome for a beginner while I trot, though I imagine I look the fool when cantering since I just can't stop laughing for some reason XD Saw 'Australia' the movie yesterday and as such when SR and I were riding in a large paddock with a cow, we decided to be drovers and attempt to herd the cow around. I think the cow is smarter than us though, but it was still great fun. post comment

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